I loved show week. The Sorcerer isn’t the best show I’ve ever been in - it’s story line isn’t the greatest; it’s all kind of level. The drama doesn’t stand out and there isn’t too much comedy, and the music is nice but not outstanding. It might have been one of the best productions though. Despite the shortcomings of the show itself, the cast and crew made it great. The set and costumes were amazing to look at - the clips of video I’ve seen so far prove it looked just as good from the auditorium. And the cast pulled out bits of drama and comedy from it. Some singing issues - volume was mentioned a lot and a little flatness here and there - which aren’t brilliant, but nonetheless everyone seemed to enjoy the show.

Apart from that, I had fun. I wasn’t at work so I was able to go out and even though I got ill at the end of the week and missed the majority of the after-show party on Saturday the rest of the week was good. I’ll miss it next year, I think, when studying probably means I won’t be able to do as much.

But now comes the post-show slump. It was awful last week. I start to think that maybe this is what I want to do, rather than anything I’ve planned to. I wouldn’t know where to start or how to get started, but find myself wondering if I’ll regret not trying.

At the moment, I’m redrafting my MPhil to finish it off before July. That’s the current goal.  Unfortunately it means having to go back to things which my supervisor wants me to do and I don’t have any interest in. Like Jacobin politics. I don’t think it fits, think it’s a distraction and a huge amount of research for essentially a page and a half of writing. If I wanted to study it, I’d be doing history or politics not nineteenth century theatre novels. Four months, four chapters, right? I’ve got 90% of the word count so I’m not bothered about that aspect. It’s the analysis that I’m still struggling with in the editing.  Coupled with the fact that I’m having serious ennui because the whole degree is pretty pointless and I’m wondering what else I could have done with this year, and it’s not going brilliantly.